When You Feel Like What You Do Doesn’t Matter

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Posting at iBelieve this week ...

Photo from here

As a single woman, I sometimes feel like nothing I do really matters. I get up in the morning, go to work and stare at a computer screen all day long only to go home, do a few routine things, go to bed and get up the next day to start again.

I am surrounded by Christian moms and dads who are bringing up their children in the Lord and I think what an amazing job they’re doing; I listen to missionaries and hear how they’re taking God’s Word all around the world; I read about people who have started charitable organizations that have grown to feed and clothe the masses. All of those things seem so big; all of those people seem to be doing so much for the kingdom of God.

I long to be a wife and a mom and to teach my children about Jesus, but since God hasn’t had that happen yet, I sometimes wonder if I’ve missed some opportunity, some mission He had for me that I overlooked. Because some days, my life feels pretty insignificant. I fear getting to the end of my life and never having done anything that really mattered.

But God reminds me through His Word that no matter how small something may seem here on earth, we can still bring Him glory through it. 

“So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.” -1 Corinthians 10:31 (NIV)

That is why I want to write … for Him … to bring Him the glory. I don’t have a blog with thousands of readers or hundreds of comments, but He reminded me recently it’s not about numbers or how successful it looks like to the outside world. He will let my words impact the people they need to.

So whether you feel like you’re doing something big or small, if you’re doing it for God, you’re bringing Him glory through it. And that matters.


  1. Brooke, thank you for your heartfelt honesty in this post. I too feel the same way you do sometimes. The days can feel mundane and hard. It's not that I don't enjoy working with the little children but I sometimes feel like what I'm doing isn't making a real impact.
    Thank you for these words of encouragement though that what we do really does matter and have an impact.
    Thank you for your impact Brooke. I have been impacted by your presence here online and by your encouragement. Your writing has an impact on me Brooke and on others. Thanks for being so open, honest and loving. God bless you!

  2. HI Brooke,
    I am a single missionary and still need to be reminded of this. Sometimes it seems that there is no visible impact in my work. Being in the bush, I have little contact with others from my culture. So I sometimes want to just speak English with someone who gets it. I have to be intentional about being fed spiritually and making any type of relationship.

  3. Hi Brooke -- It's Eimile from the influence conference and I'm just getting around to checking out the blogs of people I've met. So glad I found your blog --- I love your honesty and encouragement :)

  4. As I look around here today for the first time I am loving this visit. You write so openly, feeling you are not holding back. You are just real and so I relate and understand.

    It's interesting because the things you process about not being married yet and longing for it, how being a wife and mom will give fulfillment, and wondering about what you do with you day and wanting to be fruitful to God… those are the things that I wonder about now that I am married but without children. I hope this is of encouragement to you. Once you are married we still 'struggle' with the same questions, they just come in a little different light. Marriage did answer those deep longings and everyday I am grateful for it. But my husband and I are having trouble conceiving and thus those questions rise again. I feel what I do is not of much meaning… I recently told my husband… if we are not going to have children… I better come up with something real good to do because I don't want my life to go to waist. I see having children as a huge and beautiful calling. Now that it's not here… I question things.

    I just wanted to stop by and say… I understand all of your life's questions. God bless you for seeking so much and wanting the best out of life. I believe if I'd met you in person I'd really enjoy ya.

  5. Brooke -

    I just found your blog through your post on (in)courage. Oh my word! I feel like I identify with nearly every post you have written. I don't think I have ever heard someone express so clearly what I am feeling. I wonder about purpose...making a difference...wondering why the things that I have a passion for are out of reach for the time being (creating a safe, Christian home for a husband/children). Thank you for sharing! I feel like we could sit down and chat and be on completely the same page even having never met. :)



© Brooke Smith. All Rights Reserved. | Blog Design By Brittany Douglas