This post originally appeared on the blog For Unmarried Christian Women back in May of this year. After finding that it's no longer on the site, I decided to re-post it here making me think there might be someone out there who needs to be reminded that we have a God who looks beyond human statistics and facts and does what we humans view as impossible. Believe that He can perform miracles; believe in the unseen; He is working.
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I deleted his voice mails, threw away the “I love you” notes he left me, and quit carrying the purse he bought me because they all served as painful reminders of the man I thought I was going to marry.
However, what I can’t get rid of is the stack of bridal magazines I bought in anticipation of planning our wedding. Not that I needed them. I’ve had my wedding planned for years, but buying bridal magazines felt like a rite of passage when you get engaged. For me, it was part of the excitement, the anticipation of this beautiful day I had dreamed of, a day I thought would never come.
As the perpetual single girl, I was 33 years old when I got engaged last year. It’s been several months now since my ex and I broke up and along with the death of that relationship, I’ve struggled with feeling like my dreams of being a wife and mother have also died. I think most everyone would agree that it’s hard, especially in today’s world, to find someone to love, to hold, and to cherish forever. I had waited years to find someone and before I knew it, he was gone.
I hear the lie daily from the enemy that I will never find someone else to love like that, that I will be alone forever and years from now, I will still be longing for something I’m not supposed to have.
And you know what? The enemy might be right. I may never get married; I may never have children. While that possibility can bring me to tears in a moment, I know that my God is Sovereign above all. He will never leave me. He will bring me joy, hope, peace and love in unexpected ways no matter what.
But another thing I know is that the enemy is a liar.
My God is all about the impossible.
If you look at history, God showed up big time when it appeared that all hope was lost. He supplied a sacrifice for Abraham at the last minute in place of his son Isaac, Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead after four whole days, and Jesus Himself beat death on a cross rising again three days later after it appeared that the story was finished.
You see my dream did die with my broken engagement, but that doesn’t mean it’s gone forever.
It might mean it’s on the way to being resurrected because with God, death isn’t the end. It’s only the beginning. So whatever you’re longing for, whatever it appears will never happen just might be on the verge of coming to life again.
Believe in the possibilities that lie in the greatness of God’s power.
Maybe, just maybe, I’ll get to use those bridal magazines one day … and even if I don’t, God is good and He is great.